I am sorry this happened to you and that he could not respect your wishes. Take time to focus on you, do the things you like and pamper yourself! It’s so important that you heal from what he did to you. Not everyone is like this, only asses like him.
If older men like him (36) aren’t settled then there is a good reason for that. Women don’t want men who are selfish and cannot take accountability. Let me guess.. it was his idea not to use a condom as well? This guy is an ass. I understand that you’re hurt, and you will definitely have to process it all, but it is for the better that it ended once and for all and once you are ready you can find someone that isn’t out to disrespect and hurt you.